Bend over backwards.

Morph Kina Grannis and Jasmine Villegas (a.k.a the girl from 'Baby')

You get Cierra Ramirez

 

She starred in this:

 

I will admit, this was a pretty good investment of my time. It is available on youtube; and the girl (who is my age) has got some serious swag. I adore her sense of fashion.

--this was drafted early March.

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Hello peoples !

I have been through a whirlwind of emotions. And suddenly, I didn't need to blog about it anymore. Containing them in my mind was more self-sufficient.

Pao's loss, day 11.

I have , you can say... come to terms with Pao's loss? (Now I know for sure she isnt going to appear on my doorstep again eventually.)

Her kittens are dying one by one. Watching them get weaker and weaker until they can barely produce a sound is getting less painful than I thought it would be. Morbid thoughts flood my mind. Optimistic me would tell me to snip them off before it develops into a major psychological problem.

Anyway, what I did was, give them a bath! If they were going to die I want them to be clean while at it. Do not question the rationale to that. I get really angry when people have anything negative to say about Pao "abandoning" her kittens and making circumstances be such. Because she didn't just abandon them. She was mercilessly thieved away.

Anyway, enough with the moping.

Ironically, what made me want to blog was listening to jumpy bubbly songs. If I were still sad I wouldn't be able to phrase proper english sentences about what I feel.

Think ;

Sara Bareilles - Gonna Get Over You

Marina & The Diamonds- Primadona Love
..whatever you get when you youtube 'Demi Lovato playlist'

My life has made a dramatic leap of progress if we compare it with the last 5/6 months.. I start college in more or less 10 days. I'm doing A levels. The last thing I saw myself doing. This is taking some time for my brain to process.

I think my mom is the most bending-over-backwards person I know of, in this planet.

In one day she buys me a watch, a subway sandwich, a new pair of spectacles, on top of that gives me cash for future use, offers to get me a handbag, bears with the excessive excessive excessive amount of walking we did around KL trying to locate the college I was supposed to visit, doesn't complain even once after we took the wrong train roughly four or five times, goes to inquire about another college for the course I was supposed to take, etc etc. She cancelled all the plans she was supposed to attend to for the day to morally support me and even attended the free trial class I was supposed to attend because I was a bit scared to be alone in such a foreign environment.

Oh, oh, all of that while having a really injured knee.

She will not know how much I appreciate and need her in my life. Because we're not one for "I love you" s.

It gives me a lot to compare with if you look at how much my dad is involved with my life. Yes, it brings me down sometimes, but I had like, the last five years or so to get used to it.

So why does it still bring me down? things to ponder..

On swearing.

Morph Chuck Norris and Ryan Reynolds?

Get James Van Der Beek?

It's come to my attention that I just, don't swear (?) At all! 

By choice.

Like, it isn't even difficult for me to refrain from doing it, because actually doing it would be as unnatural as a horse mating with a dog or something.

Unless you count the word "stupid" . (Which I don't) Now that is a word's usage of which I abuse, --with an indian accent, might I add. Not so much when I write, but when I speak .. it's almost like my catch phrase.

Not to say that I'd rather have a knife a few centimeters away from my eyeball before I am forced to spurt out something, and even then have to call it  'the eff word'..

I am not a fan of the term. As if using the term makes it any less... 'sinful',  if that's what the worry is; besides, wouldn't it seriously rob the impact the swear word would deliver ? Think about it.

"Eff you!"

I think 'Eff' makes a cute pet's middle name. Not an offensive comeback.

I read somewhere that swearing is only a cover up for a lack of a better word to describe how a person is feeling or trying to express themselves.

I'd actually fancy someone who can verbally 'topple' someone down without needing to swear , because their command of language is so powerful it speaks volumes. It's so much more intelligent and classeh.

Here's what I absolutely despise, tho-- when 'gay' is supposed to be an insult. The hate I have for someone who goes; 'Ugh, so gay', if bottled, (and could be transformed into heat energy) could boil an egg. Then, I'd take that egg and smash it on the person who said that.

..Nah I wouldn't. I'm too cowardly nice. (: 
 

The look alikes.

Given a choice between the morphs I make and the lookalikes, I would say this look alike thing is WAAAYYYYY easier to pull off. However, there is already a website dedicated to making things like that and it will seem much less original, so I just try and convince myself that maybe there is one other person who could look like the person I am working on at that moment.

It takes significantly less time for me to do a look alike then it does to do an eventually-sort-of-failed morph.

Sometimes, how it works is that I see someone from a show and instantly see a blend of 2 people in them, but to make other people see what I'm seeing in my head becomes the problem. I have to find a picture that looks like a perfect blend of 2 people. It would fail if the person leaned towards one more.

Sort of like this one. I don't know if this one passes or fails. (In my defense, that image I have in my head is just not on the internet!)

Morph Allison Scagliotti and Lisa Ray ?

Get Claire Forlani.

...And other times, my mind is only able to see ONE person. No blend, whatsoever. Just, one person who somewhat resembles the other.

Here's my collection thus far. I brought back some pictures from my old blog.


1. Lily Allen and Natasha Khan.

2.Justin Bieber and young Alyssa Milano.

3. Justin Bieber and Christa B Allen from the movie 13 going on 30.

4. Mark Indelicato and Zayn Malik. (This one became more popular than I thought, it brought a number of visitors clicking on my blog, and made it into tumblr on Mark's fan site.) Looking at it now I must say, it's pretty inaccurate. What was I even thinking.

5. Once, I thought Keegan Allen was what Cody Simpson would look like if he grew up and dyed his hair dark brown.

6. And while on that basis, Paul Wesley is what I think Justin Bieber would look like if he grows up. (Considering this is a pretty recent post, I'll link you to it but put one picture here for the compilation's sake.)

7. Again, really recent and can be found below this post but put here for courtesy sake, Adam Green and Julian Casablancas.

8. Paul Campbell and Scott Porter.

9.A young John Stamos and Zac Efron.

10. Brad Pitt and Travis Fimmel.

 The other day I was watching 'Deja Vu' on youtube, and saw someone who I thought played Oleg on 2 Broke Girls. It was refreshing to see him all civilized and talking physics. Apparently it WASN'T the same person. Which brings me to this one.

11. Johnathan Kite and Adam Goldberg.

12.Fiona Button and Georgia King. 

13. Natasha O Keefe and Jessie J. I don't know who stole whose look. 

14. Kat Dennings and Hillary Duff.

I guess that's about it?

The baking story.

Morph Raina, Sasha Piterse and  Rebecca Romjin?

 Get Denise Richards.

Baking (or more like, watching mom bake) is something I used to find exciting. Back when Christmas invited something to look forward to.

Last Christmas, I thought the enthusiasm will return. It all started when I forced my mother to get this, early December.

After much procrastination, (days away from christmas) my mother started off making things I don't like; like this.

That was when I remembered ; we had 'devil food' mixture,and I wasn't going to let my mom pretend she had never bought it.

So the same evening, I bugged till I got what I wanted. (Pretty much the same way I get other things I want)  ..I'll let the pictures do the talking.

Unfortunately, it did NOT turn out to be as good as the cover of the box would suggest. Wasn't all that moist. Maybe because my mom altered the recipe a bit. I'll tell you this, though--when you microwave the thing, it tastes like something you'd pay a lot of money for.

In a nutshell, I learned that baking isn't for everyone; and I outgrew the enthusiastic feeling of watching the christmas baking process happen.

The fear.

Morph Brad Pitt and Eric Dane?

 Get Nick Zano.

Over the long break from the outside world and being confined in the house (which doesn't mean my life has been miserable because it hasn't) I have had time to properly think about some of the things I am scared of.

* Agoraphobia- Fear of open spaces or of being in crowded, public places like markets. Fear of leaving a safe place.

* Claustrophobia- Fear of confined spaces.

*  Eremophobia- Fear of being oneself or of loneliness

*  Decidophobia- Fear of making decisions.

*  Entomophobia- Fear of insects.

I guess the most crippling one would be the one in bold. It is a recently-developed fear. It's robbing my peace. I cannot go out alone in a bus to anywhere I want. How the hell do I go to college ? How do I get clothes I want without shopping with someone who'd judge my style and make me feel pressured into making choices instantaneously?


 And my fear of decisions. I would rather someone who knows me well make choices for me . But life isn't like that. I have to step up and do my own damn things...


It's very easy to mock and make fun of someone who would rather starve at home than walk out to the shop and get a decent meal ; mistaking it for laziness or being unable to be independent --but nobody knows what it's like to be me. I cannot explain it either.