On swearing.

Morph Chuck Norris and Ryan Reynolds?

Get James Van Der Beek?

It's come to my attention that I just, don't swear (?) At all! 

By choice.

Like, it isn't even difficult for me to refrain from doing it, because actually doing it would be as unnatural as a horse mating with a dog or something.

Unless you count the word "stupid" . (Which I don't) Now that is a word's usage of which I abuse, --with an indian accent, might I add. Not so much when I write, but when I speak .. it's almost like my catch phrase.

Not to say that I'd rather have a knife a few centimeters away from my eyeball before I am forced to spurt out something, and even then have to call it  'the eff word'..

I am not a fan of the term. As if using the term makes it any less... 'sinful',  if that's what the worry is; besides, wouldn't it seriously rob the impact the swear word would deliver ? Think about it.

"Eff you!"

I think 'Eff' makes a cute pet's middle name. Not an offensive comeback.

I read somewhere that swearing is only a cover up for a lack of a better word to describe how a person is feeling or trying to express themselves.

I'd actually fancy someone who can verbally 'topple' someone down without needing to swear , because their command of language is so powerful it speaks volumes. It's so much more intelligent and classeh.

Here's what I absolutely despise, tho-- when 'gay' is supposed to be an insult. The hate I have for someone who goes; 'Ugh, so gay', if bottled, (and could be transformed into heat energy) could boil an egg. Then, I'd take that egg and smash it on the person who said that.

..Nah I wouldn't. I'm too cowardly nice. (: 
 

Damon Wayans Jr.

 HEWGE infatuation with Brad from Happy Endings.

When I first started watching, I was all for Max . Maturity is when you find BRAD the sex.  I don't even want to care if that made sense.

I absolutely adore his relationship with Jane on the show, it set the bar too damn high. Like I don't want to settle for anything less than a real-life Brad. This also marks the beginning of my fetish for dark skinned people. 

Look at this 44 second preview. How can anyone (be it from any other TV show to exist, or people from real life, in fact--) beat their superiority, as the power couple? It just kind of goes without saying.

This is not a betrayal of my fundamental attractions. My love for all things flamboyant has not left me. It's part of me. Which is why this will justify it.

And besides, who does not want a husband who broadway dances to the dentist ?

non important piece of information but somewhat relevant to the post: He totally looks like his dad , who was the star of  'My Wife and Kids'.

: D hehe.

Amelia and tattoos.

I think it's safe to say that I am not a tattoo person. I don't hate people who do it, I just would not do it to myself. I think, it's just too... permanent, and I am the kind of person who does something one moment and years later wish I had done it differently.

Like, I don't even have nail polish on because one moment I feel like having blue nails then just 10 minutes after it's dried, realize that my blue nails are so in contrast with my yellow dress or something. 

Plus, I just feel that it's tainting the purity of skin. Especially if it is a HUGE ASS one that covers a whole back . Or something extremely nonsensical, e.g; a humungous angry three headed dragon spitting fire onto a shiny sword that comes out of a knight's mouth.

It's a lot like making a statement, a rebellious act of youth. How do you think it's going to look when you're old and sagging? Would you still find it "cool" ?

Hollllddddd up. I think I'm speaking of just those large body covering images you see on stereotypical largely built bikers. There are certain exceptions I'd make when it comes to tattoos.

Like, I am a fan of quotes that mean something to the individual, and as long as it doesn't stretch too big. I like symbols too, because it's a tiny shape that can express a lot of things. The symbol of INFINITY for instance,  It could be about the will to survive. It could be about the pursuit of finding love. It could be about the ability to love. It could be about not giving up. I also like really tiny and thin armband/wristband tattoos. But again, it's risky because if I get it I'd have to see it every single day of my life. Then crave for change. Known fact: Tattoos don't change !

But if one day I got mad drunk and I did get one anyway, it would positively be an Eisley quote. Or a single word. (Unwind.)

You don't belong to me anymore.

You don't belong to me anymore.

Not in the sense that I don't own you anymore.

But rather; you don't correspond with me anymore.

And that's normal, right? People know, it happens, they don't think of it happening to them. (until it does). Perhaps because some people haven't come to terms with how embarrassingly much their reality would seem like something adapted from the first half a corny chick flick.

When it does happen eventually, however, it becomes scary to re-live the whole cycle; of meeting someone, have them be a huge part of your life, and have them feel distant and eventually leave.

 You don't belong to me anymore.

What makes it worst is when the cause of them leaving is self-inflicted. Then, for some reason, the most 'rational' thing to do about it is to build walls and not let yourself be attached to anyone ever again. Only problem with that is , it is creating more reasons for you to be unhappy with life, and you're probably pushing away the slight chances of existing happiness that might be trying to reach you. You become the cause of your sadness.

I personally think one of the worst things you could do to yourself is let someone have the privilege of breaking you. (Though coming from me, it's mildly hypocritical , lol!)

What I mean, is like, if someone says something without putting too much thought on filtering it to suit you, and it offends you,

You can CHOOSE to be affected by it, or brush it off. Of course, choosing to be offended by it will strain your relationship with that person and only make you upset while the other person is completely unaware and goes away unharmed in their happy, productive life. Point being, how much you want to sustain the relationship and make your life happy is your call.

So, reality check -- If you cannot take a joke about yourself and take offense in much more things than an average person does , you might as well be damned.

You don't belong to me anymore. 

So what ? Mope about it for a while. But it's important to be honest with yourself, meet new people and move on with your life ! 

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Because sometimes I think only I can tell myself what I want to hear.